Who We Are Now

Yesterday was a hard day. This letter by Emily T. Wieranga is incredible (so is her book, Atlas Girl) in case you're wondering. I don't have anything to say right now that she hasn't said, so here she is (these are just the parts that resonated with me when I was having consecutive moments; the letter is touching and I encourage you to read it in its entirety)

Joy is not found in a perfect life. Joy is the peace that transcends all understanding as we look into the eyes of our Maker and see that we can trust him in site of the pain around us. God is trustworthy. 

The world weighs with numbers; the Lord weighs with grace, and you owe him nothing, friend. Everything and nothing. He has paid it all. He wants you to rest and trust him. He's got you covered. 

You can surrender your eating disorder. It does not control you. You have a voice, and you can use it to stand up against anorexia in the name of Jesus. But until the issues which are driving this eating disorder are addressed - the longing to be seen and heard and held, the pain of being hurt by people who say they love you - E.D. will remain a deceptively safe place. A wall to hide behind. Please know, it's not what it seems. God sees you, he hears you, he is holding you. You are free through the power of Christ, to declare victory, right now. 

You, friend, are not your eating disorder. I know you cling to it for protection, but your identity is being consumed, versus identitfied. Your ED has became your idol, and it's only when you see it for what it is - a lite, from the enemy, who wants God's sons and daughters to die - that you will be free to pursue the dreams God has for you. 

You are more than your ED. You are more than a conqueror in Jesus

These voices [in your head] can be muted by one soft whisper - the whisper of a God who will fight for you if you let him. Call at to Jesus, and he will silence Satan's control over your thoughts. 

When you serve the Almighty Creator, nothing is impossible - he can give you the desires of your heart. But you need to surrender - you need to mute him in, to begin the healing, so that every single one of these days can be restored. 

He leads me besides still water. He restores me soul. Psalm 23:2-3

Disordered eating makes me feel far from God. His word reminds me He is near -

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angles nor rulers, nor things present to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:37-39

Forgiven, beloved, hidden in Christ

Made in the image of the Giver of Life

Righteous and holy, reborn and remade

Accepted and worthy, this is our new name