Some scholars believe that Paul may have been suicidal, based on passages in Philippians 1 and other epistles where he says that dying is gain, and that he is excited to meet Christ, who he's served in his ministry.
I don't think they really understand Paul, or what it's like to meet the person of Jesus and to strive to die for Him daily. See when you really commit your life to Christ, I mean, really surrender yourself, the Lord is your life. Earth or Heaven, that's your life. And on earth, you're constantly surrounded by pressures and stress and temptations, distractions from your God. In Heaven, though, that's all you have. You get to spend every minute reveling in the awe and wonder of God. You get to meet Jesus face to face, touch His scars. The Church gets to be married to Him, and partake in the bridal feast. That sounds just incredible!
I agree with Paul. I have some of these "suicidal" verses on my wall. If I died tomorrow, I don't even think I could be disappointed. I'd be thrilled to meet my Lord and Savior. Does that make me suicidal? I don't think so. As much as I look forward to being with God 24/7, I wouldn't take my life to do so. I'm submitted to His plan and His timing. And if He's got things for me to do here, I'll do them with joy.
Either way, it's a dance. Let God do the leading.
Lord, I am so excited to dance with You, here and in Heaven. Thank You so much for welcoming me into Your eternal arms. In Jesus, Amen.
For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain. Philippians 1:21
Whom have I in heaven but thee? And there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee. Psalm 73:25
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Sunday, May 1, 2011
God Is Good, No Matter What
I've been sick all week, some days worse than others. Yesterday I competed in our track meet despite feeling the worst I've felt all week. Needless to say, it was pretty miserably and absolutely exhausting (although I performed fairly well). At 3:30 am, I woke up and I can't even remember the last time I'd felt that awful. And God gave me a verse:
The people I formed for Myself will declare My praise. Isaiah 43:21
Not exactly the verse you want at 3:30 am when you can't breathe, you're on fire, and can barely move. But although I didn't particularly want that verse, I realize it was what I needed. My mind floated back to Betsie TenBoom, who in the middle of a concentration camp said, "Give thanks in all circumstances. It doesn't say 'in pleasant circumstances'", referring to 1 Thessalonians 5:18. She and Corrie even thanked God for the fleas in their room.
Although I was tired and cranky and quite pitiful, it was important for me to remember that God is still good. He is bigger than my illness, and I will praise Him through this storm.
Whom have I in heaven but thee? And there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee. My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever. Psalm 73:25-26
Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. 2 Corinthians 12:10
The people I formed for Myself will declare My praise. Isaiah 43:21
Not exactly the verse you want at 3:30 am when you can't breathe, you're on fire, and can barely move. But although I didn't particularly want that verse, I realize it was what I needed. My mind floated back to Betsie TenBoom, who in the middle of a concentration camp said, "Give thanks in all circumstances. It doesn't say 'in pleasant circumstances'", referring to 1 Thessalonians 5:18. She and Corrie even thanked God for the fleas in their room.
Although I was tired and cranky and quite pitiful, it was important for me to remember that God is still good. He is bigger than my illness, and I will praise Him through this storm.
Whom have I in heaven but thee? And there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee. My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever. Psalm 73:25-26
Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong. 2 Corinthians 12:10
Thursday, April 28, 2011
O The Blood
Especially when I was young - a new Christian, the thought of Jesus' blood covering me to make me clean really grossed me out. I thought that was so freaky! As I studied the Bible more, I saw in the Old Testament the necessity of a blood sacrifice. Then I saw how Jesus was that perfect sacrificial Lamb. I also dealt with the reality of sin, and how we need some other way to be seen by God. If the Lord were to judge just me, I'd be in trouble. There's no way I would be declared righteous enough to be in His presence.
Which is why words can't express my thankfulness for Jesus Christ. Because through His death on the cross, God looks at me as holy and clean. I can call on the name of Jesus and it is in Him I can do all things in freedom.
That's why I'm proud to say that I'm washed by Christ's blood. It is so precious, so incredible, so marvelous.
Come now, and let us reason together, saith the LORD: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool. Isaiah 1:18
The next day John seeth Jesus coming unto him, and saith, Behold the Lamb of God, which taketh away the sin of the world. John 1:29
And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death. Revelation 12:11
Which is why words can't express my thankfulness for Jesus Christ. Because through His death on the cross, God looks at me as holy and clean. I can call on the name of Jesus and it is in Him I can do all things in freedom.
That's why I'm proud to say that I'm washed by Christ's blood. It is so precious, so incredible, so marvelous.
Come now, and let us reason together, saith the LORD: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool. Isaiah 1:18
The next day John seeth Jesus coming unto him, and saith, Behold the Lamb of God, which taketh away the sin of the world. John 1:29
And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death. Revelation 12:11
Patience
When I was a gymnast, there was a poem that hung in our gym, and I would read it every single day before I left. I remember it to this day; here's the beginning, "Patience is a virtue, or so the saying goes. A gymnast must have said it, for a gymnast surely knows that in this funny sport of ours, discouragement runs high, and at times the very best may find this virtue's passed them by". Well, once you reach a certain level in the sport, you will always have some gymnast in you.
Last night, I was feeling disappointed with the track practice I'd had, and I was praying about it. God gave me a verse that I'm pretty familiar with, it even hangs on my wall:
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Hebrews 12:1
But I had the King James Version of the Bible in my bed, so I flipped to the page to see what it said:
Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us.
Do you see the big difference there? Perseverance vs. Patience. I'd never heard the "patience" translation before. I was absolutely blown away. God wanted to reassure me, saying not that I needed to push through or work harder, but that I need to relax and wait on His timing. So beautiful! I will wait upon the Lord.
But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
Last night, I was feeling disappointed with the track practice I'd had, and I was praying about it. God gave me a verse that I'm pretty familiar with, it even hangs on my wall:
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Hebrews 12:1
But I had the King James Version of the Bible in my bed, so I flipped to the page to see what it said:
Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us.
Do you see the big difference there? Perseverance vs. Patience. I'd never heard the "patience" translation before. I was absolutely blown away. God wanted to reassure me, saying not that I needed to push through or work harder, but that I need to relax and wait on His timing. So beautiful! I will wait upon the Lord.
But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Praise!
Learning to play guitar has been a complete joy for me. It is such a sincere expression of my worship. I love taking the time to learn a song, and then play it for the Lord. I also help lead worship at InterVarsity. This has been a tremendous learning opportunity for me. God has used this to speak so deeply to my heart.
Like last week's fellowship. I knew I was playing that night; my friend and I had picked out the songs and practiced the night before as usual. I got there and she had decided not to play. No big. She printed off copies of the lyrics as I tuned my guitar and strummed a little when I realized: I didn't have the chords. Silly me, how did I forget the very thing that tells me what to play? The Lord was very faithful and helped remind me how the songs went, and everything was beautiful. We lifted our voices and hearts up to Him, and praise was what we gave Him.
The evening served to remind me that all I can give to the Lord is my life and my heart; He has no need for the things of this world. I don't need to worry about what it sounds like or if it's perfect, so long as it reminds my soul of the glory of Jesus Christ. So praise is the offering we can bring to Him.
For the LORD is great and greatly to be praised;He is also to be feared above all gods. 1 Chronicles 16:25
I will declare Your name to My brethren; in the midst of the assembly I will sing praise to You. Hebrews 2:12
I will sing to the LORD as long as I live; I will sing praise to my God while I have my being. Psalm 104:33
Let my mouth be filled with Your praise and with Your glory all the day. But I will hope continually, and will praise You yet more and more. Psalm 71:8, 14
Like last week's fellowship. I knew I was playing that night; my friend and I had picked out the songs and practiced the night before as usual. I got there and she had decided not to play. No big. She printed off copies of the lyrics as I tuned my guitar and strummed a little when I realized: I didn't have the chords. Silly me, how did I forget the very thing that tells me what to play? The Lord was very faithful and helped remind me how the songs went, and everything was beautiful. We lifted our voices and hearts up to Him, and praise was what we gave Him.
The evening served to remind me that all I can give to the Lord is my life and my heart; He has no need for the things of this world. I don't need to worry about what it sounds like or if it's perfect, so long as it reminds my soul of the glory of Jesus Christ. So praise is the offering we can bring to Him.
For the LORD is great and greatly to be praised;He is also to be feared above all gods. 1 Chronicles 16:25
I will declare Your name to My brethren; in the midst of the assembly I will sing praise to You. Hebrews 2:12
I will sing to the LORD as long as I live; I will sing praise to my God while I have my being. Psalm 104:33
Let my mouth be filled with Your praise and with Your glory all the day. But I will hope continually, and will praise You yet more and more. Psalm 71:8, 14
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Christ Is Risen!
Easter is easily my favorite holiday, because it celebrates the life and freedom we have in Christ alone. Last night, I was trying to imagine what it must have been like for Jesus' followers. Their Lord had just been slain, and they were left alone, with no true leadership or authority. What were they supposed to do? What a dark day that must have been. Their God was dead! How depressing.
But.
The next morning, the tomb was empty. Matthew 28:6 reads, He is not here; for He is risen, as He said. Come, see the place where the Lord lay.
The Jewish people would have been familiar with God's promises, and the fact that He always does what He says He will. So for the doubters who still didn't recognize Jesus as God, and for the followers seeking confirmation, this was the greatest miracle of all time.
Today, we celebrate our risen Lord, who forgives our sins and redeems us into a new life in Him.
“ O Death, where is your sting? O Hades, where is your victory?” The sting of death is sin, and the strength of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. 1 Corinthians 15:55-57
But.
The next morning, the tomb was empty. Matthew 28:6 reads, He is not here; for He is risen, as He said. Come, see the place where the Lord lay.
The Jewish people would have been familiar with God's promises, and the fact that He always does what He says He will. So for the doubters who still didn't recognize Jesus as God, and for the followers seeking confirmation, this was the greatest miracle of all time.
Today, we celebrate our risen Lord, who forgives our sins and redeems us into a new life in Him.
“ O Death, where is your sting? O Hades, where is your victory?” The sting of death is sin, and the strength of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. 1 Corinthians 15:55-57
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Experience Jesus
Today in one of my classes, we did a little role play. Half of us were the early Christians, and the other half were pagans of the Roman Empire. The early Christians were acting as Paul and the apostles who traveled, spreading the Gospel and winning converts. As we talked to our pagan neighbors, we saw how difficult it was to convince someone to abandon all of their beliefs and everything they'd ever known. By the end of the exercise, we were all wondering what Paul must have said in order to get these people to follow Jesus. We came to the conclusion that someone has to really experience Jesus before deciding to follow Him. You don't hear about Christ and just go, "Ok, sounds good". No, it is a full knowing of His reality and His work.
Do you remember that when you put yourself under Christ's Lordship? You didn't decide to follow Jesus because your parents or your church told you so. I bet you decided to follow Him because you just knew it was the only way. Once you know the Lord, it's impossible to turn back.
And once you know God, you're completely unstoppable; you reside in His strength, which is simply matchless on earth.
I say to the Lord, "You are my God". Listen, Lord, to my cry for help. Lord God, my strong Savior, You shield my head on the day of battle. Psalm 140:6-7
For “whoever calls on the name of the LORD shall be saved.” Romans 10:13
Do you remember that when you put yourself under Christ's Lordship? You didn't decide to follow Jesus because your parents or your church told you so. I bet you decided to follow Him because you just knew it was the only way. Once you know the Lord, it's impossible to turn back.
And once you know God, you're completely unstoppable; you reside in His strength, which is simply matchless on earth.
I say to the Lord, "You are my God". Listen, Lord, to my cry for help. Lord God, my strong Savior, You shield my head on the day of battle. Psalm 140:6-7
For “whoever calls on the name of the LORD shall be saved.” Romans 10:13
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